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Saturday, January 2, 2010

Sarah Anabella Tran



Anabella Tran. Your name is obviously an asian trying to be caucasionalised. I joke. Anyway I am writing this to you because you know that you are awesome to me. We have been virtual friends or should I say best friends? Wait that title is bestowed upon Sea Urchin. Anyway, we have been virtual friends for like almost 3 years or more? Reading our msn convos makes me smile constantly over and over again. I love the way we confuse people and the way we troll people even if later in life we might be able to be friends with them. You have helped me out more some others have. You have been there for me through everything and I thank you for that. If you lived in Brisbane, would we call each other Best of Friends?? I think so. One day, I will look forward to actually meeting you in the flesh. Because you are like a brother to me. We will go out shopping and I will show you the hottest people that Brisbane has to offer. Ofcourse they will go after you. BUT, you have to atleast give me some :P Do you remember the time when we met. I recently told you about it. But yeah, I was one of the young boys trying to get in your pants. NOT EVEN!! But yeah who would have thought that we would be this close? Anyway I'm sorry for anything I have done to you in this year or the previous years. I don't mean it and I always want to remain friends with you. Whether it always be virtual or for one sweet day that we could be best friends in the flesh. I hope 2009 has been a good year to you and that I hope 2010 will be even better. You're a nice girl. You're a cool girl. Better yet, you're a girl whose like a boy? Which I digg. Anyways I don't want to bore you. But thanks for making my 2009 a great year :) Take care cunt.

Friday, January 1, 2010

2010 :)


So it's now a New Year and it is also a new decade. It is time to say goodbye to 2009 and all that came from there. I must admit 2009 was probably one of the best years in my life. Even though I've had plenty of downs. Life isn't perfect. And if you're living a life with no dowsn, then your not living life at all. You can't go far if you haven't experience life. And I guess I can say I have. 2009 started of with me breaking up with ex and then starting another relationship not long after it. But that also ended and not long after that one I started another one. But now, I have been single well sort of single for the past 6 months or so. But anyway I'm hungry. I feel like pizza at the moment. But this post isn't exactly for that. It's to recap on the important things that have happened in the past year. There is a lot. But I am still thinking if I should write them all and make this the longest POST EVER!!

Let's start of with the beginning of the year. The beginning of the year was pretty good I guess. Because 2008 was one of the worst years in my life. I was hardout depressed and emo, yeah long story and I don't want to make this blog longer than it's already going to be. But, after surviving 2008 I felt much stronger and I was hoping that 2009 would bring me a very good year. And in summary, I guess it did . I started of the year with going to a brand new school. A school where I knew noone. I wanted to start fresh and be not known. I have no clue why, but yeah that's what my intention was. The school I used to go to was known as 'Marsden High'. It was the GHETTO!! Seriously, there are fights in that school everday! Some are pussy fights where people just chase each other. But most are fights which draw out blood. Which are the fights I like. I guess the fights at school made school days much more interesting. But it still didn't make up for the fact the school is hard out boring! So I wanted to leave the ghetto school behind and go for somewhere, which I knew noone. And that place would be known as Calamvale College. If I was to move to Calamvale that would mean that I would need to catch two buses. I hated buses, but the city buses which go passed Calamvale, are full of hot people ;). There was only one problem with attending Calamvale College. WAKING UP AT BLOODY 6 IN THE MORNING!! Yeah, unlike other schools. My school actually started at 7:30am. A time which other students would most likely still be in bed. But I would be starting my day. I didn't think I would be able to adapt to such a huge change in sleeping habbit. But I needed to if I was going to attend the school. The upside of waking up early was FINISHING EARLY! And I mean EARLY! Believe it or not, my school actually finishes at 1PM. That's heaps early and a good time for me to go home and catch up on sleep. Which I did everyday after ofcourse I would go check my bebo (I did not have a facebook at this time). So I would start a new life in a new school. My first days of school were okay I guess. It was wierd because I didn't know anyone. And this was a school that everyone knew each other. So I guess I can say it was hard to penetrate yourself in the circle of friends that had already existed. But, I wasn't going to be a loner so I had to fit in. It didn't take long to fit in and I met awesome people. Awesome people who would make my new life easier. Anyway, I'm actually over talking about school. It makes me think about it. And going back to it. Which I am going to be doing in 27 days. SOMEONE SHOOT ME! Anyway a new topic. Something funny I guess or not. I'm not really funny. I bore people to death, and I love it. Nah I don't it makes me sad. Woah, writing that made me so confused. I should stop. Anyway, this year I met heaps of new people. New people which I hope I would know for the rest of my life. I have actually changed my mind about recaping on the whole of 2009. Because I am tired and I could be sleeping instead of typing this. But I can't dissapoint my 1,232,322 followers. I just can't. I'm not that kind of person to promise a long entry and not to do it. So I will talk about other things and I guess things that I want to look forward to in the future. Um in 2009, I introduced myself to music. Nah I've always been listening to music. But I paid more attention to a certain genre of music. Which is known as KPOP. Prior to 2009. I had been listening to JPOP and some JROCK. Now I have to go back to how I first listened to my KPOP song. Well, it was on the flight from Singapore to the Philippines. Anyway, I was watching a movie that they show during the flights. And I wanted to pick something in Asian and that I could not udnerstand. Because I would rather read the subtitles much more than actualy view the movie itself. So with this in mind I came across a movie with the title of 'Attack on the Pin-Up Boys'. I thought to myself, hey! I'm a pin up boy. What if this happens to me! Nah I joke. But yeah it seemed interesting. So when I started watching it I get interested. So well that story is pretty wierd. It's about these pretty boys who get attacked. Not attacked as in stabbed. But they get 'shit' thrown in their faces! It's the popular and good looking boys from different schools who get attacked. Anyway, after 3 pretty boys got attacked from different schools. There was a sign that someone from this other school was going to get attacked. So everyone was thinking who was going to get 'shit' thrown at their face. And these 3 guys were chosen in the school as the most likely to be thrown 'shit' in their faces. I was seriously begin to question the sanity of the person who created this movie. WHO WANTS SHIT THROWN IN THEIR FACE! But because I started it, I had to finish it. And the movie actually got interesting. And once I got back from the Philippines and back to home in Australia. I decided to google who was behind such a marvelous movie. And I was stunned to find out that all the main guys in the movie were from a boy band. They are known as SUPER JUNIOR! With further research I found out that they were the largest boy band in the world. With believe it or not, 13 members! Prior to this amazing discovery I had no clue what happened in Korea. But now, I was interested! Because the language is super hard when you first know it. I could not sing along, which made me a very sad panda :( Anywho. I was surprised on the speed that I could read romanized Korean. So I began to listen to more and more KPOP. The wierd thing is. I could later read Korean just by listening to the music. And now my ability to read Hangul is 80%. But my ability to understand is 0.9%. I'm just toooo gooood. SO yeah, just by listening to the music I learnt a language. I'm pretty awesome yeah. I got interested in Big Bang. And I started to listen to all of their songs which were all pretty catchy. They're actually one of the only Korean Idol Groups which make music which is somewhat similar to American Pop. Anyway yeah I began liking their songs more and more. And then I heard news of a Girl Big Bang. I was like wtf.. why not be original for. But I found out they were under the same music company. And they released a song with Big Bang titled 'Lolipop'. SO yeah I was addicted to the song. And I began to dancing to it like crazy. Copying the dance moves because I'm cool like that! Anyway I had a huge interest in this girl group. And they released the song 'Fire'. Which is the anthem in my house. I Swear as soon as you say. 'EH EH EH EH EH EH 2ne1'. The whole house will begin dancing. I'm actually getting tired. So there will defs be a part 2 of this. So look at out for it my millions of followers and much love!!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

The season to be Jolly?

So Christmas came by just recently and I must say it was quite fun. We played Band Hero and Tekken 6 all day with the peoples so it was amazing. Apparenlty Filo's rock Christmas to the max? But I don't know, I guess we just like every excuse to party. New Year will be off as well. Because theres going to be a drink up at my place. Yay so I'm looking forward to that. Due to the fact that I DON'T drink at all. Because I like to do things that other people don't do. If that makes me antisocial then so be it. I'm kidding, but I don't drink alcohol. I went to to the doctors a week before Christmas and I was diagnosed with a swollen throat. Too much deep throat I think, I'm kidding. I haven't done enough in the past month. Nah I'm not sure actually. I like to confuse myself in ways and writing posts on my blog is one way which I succeed in doing so. So back to the story. The doctor told me to by some Robitissun. It's quite obvious that I have no clue at all on how to spell it. But it's cough medecine and it tastes like absolute crap! But I finish the entire dosage in a week. So I have no medicine at all now. And if I don't survive. Well whose to blame? My throat doesn't seem to hurt as much as it did before. Before was like a living nightmare. I could barely swollow anything. Water was a task which I could barely complete. It stung my throat to just put something inside it. So pleasuring myself was something I could not do. I joke I joke. SO yeah I have healed a bit but my health is still pretty bad I guess. But that is not going to stop me from living my life.

I was introduced to a game called HEXIC by Annabella Tran. And my golly it is ADDICTIVE. I can not be bothered at this early of the day to talk in detail about the wonders of such a game. But I will say that once you play it. You will play it non stop. My internet was capped before so I was not able to go on my favourite gaming site which was OMGPOP. But now I am uncapped I can go back to my other daily routine which was playing various games and chatting to complete strangers. Hey, I'm pretty good at it.

Back to the whole Christmas thing. It was good I guess. Not the best Christmas I have had. But not exactly the best either. I am writing a long post because I have not written one in such a long time. And I am quite sure that my followers have missed my rants about nothing. Needless to say, It is 4am in the morning. A time which my eyes should be closed and that my brain should be far into a deep state of dreaming. But, instead, I am writing endlessly about nothing and I will continue doing so until I have no energy what so ever and I pass out. New Years is coming up and in Brisbane people celebrate it in a couple of ways. They either go to the CBD and watch it by the river. Or go to the mountains and watch it from there. The uncool people stay home and watch from their TVs while they have a BBQ. Which is what I'm going to be doing I think. Going to southbank was what I used to do every year as a child. But as you grow up you begin to change. And your ideals of life also begin to change. And watching the fire works from the river, I wasn't very keen on it. I've never really watched the new year celebrations from Mt Cootha. I heard it is amazing. But if I was up there. I think I would be distracted by people having sex in their cars. Because that place is known for that. And I should know. Because I've never been. Anyway. This year has gone way fast. And too fast I think. I like time going fast in my sadness but I like it going slow in times when I am enjoying myself. Lately I have not been sleeping early. Earliest is atleast 2am. All I do is chat to my virtual friends and we keep in touch. But as long as I'm living I am happy. I have lived my life with no regrets so far. There are things which I have done which I am not proud of. But how can you learn to move forward if you're only staying in the same position all your life. I am looking forward to what 2010 will bring. Hopefully a good year, a better year. the best year maybe? I am not sure. But what ever it is I am ready. I am willing to grow more and experience things that will be thrown at me. That is life. You can't run away from your problems. You just prelong what is going to happen. And it's better to face them early because you have more time to heal in a way. We all do things in which we regret. But if we all lived in a perfect world, that would be no fun right? It's wierd how this post changed topics so fast and in so many ways. But this is me saying goodbye for now. I will update soon. FAREWELL!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

It's You



The worlds largest boy band has released a new song!
Well it's not really considered a new song since it's a remix version of their old song.
SM Entertainment decided to release a studio version of 'Neorago'
Which in english means, 'It's You'
The song was remixed for Super Junior's concert
Which will be held, well I'm not sure when it's going to be held actually.
But the song is very good.
They actually did an RNB version of 'Sorry Sorry'.
Which originally was sort of Electro Pop.
The RNB version is good but I prefer the more upbeat original version.
But anyway I'm here to talk about 'It's You'
The original version of this song was very calm.
And the constant soft 'Neorago' echoeing in the background.
Was actually very soothing.
Although I thought I wouldn't want to listen to a remix version.
The Studio version which SME released was actually very good.
The song is identically addictive as the original.
When I heard the song I couldn't wait for a video to be released.
But, I knew SME wouldn't release one.
So I made one MYSELF!

Enjoy it guys!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=opGbN6MyChs

Thursday, December 3, 2009

It's Back

Recently I've been feeling a lot weaker.
I eat a lot of food and drink a lot of water
But still,
I feel weak.
It's like theres something wrong with my body
I don't know
Maybe I'm just thinking to deeply into it
But,
Who knows
Maybe what I went through 16 years ago
Might come back.
I sometimes have breathing problems.
And my chest hurts
And my Heart Aches
Not because of a broken heart
But because of pains.
They are slight but they hurt
I know as a child I was really sick
But I thought I've grown stronger.
I'm not too worried about it yet
Maybe I will in the future.
If this does get worst.
But
As of now
I'll be strong
Everybody goes through different pains in their lives
And this is mine
It's just like a mountain being put in front of me.
I either let it block out the sunshine
Or I get over it.

I will get over it :)

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Better Days

It feels wierd
After we spoke again
Everything was better
I feel great
Feel fine.
I feel tired though
Because I barely sleep now
I need to do something artsy
Maybe paint or write more songs.
Well my project for this holiday
Is to actually complete a song
Filled with Music and lyrics
All produced on my own!
If I can do that
I will definantly upload on YOUTUBE
For all my supporters to bask in my glory
I am super bored
And I will probably go out to SunnyBank Today
To eat all the food there is
Or play pool
Nah,
I'll just eat Asian BBQ
And some ICE DESSERT!

YAY FOR SUNNYBANK!

A change.

This post isn't an ordinary post.
It's a question.
A question to myself.
Today seems wierd.
I feel different.
I don't seem as happy as I used to be.
It feels as if theres a missing part in my life.
I don't know
Maybe it's just.
I'm just waiting too long.
For something that may never actually come.
I might in the end just actually give up.
I'm putting all this effort in.
And so far
Nothing.

Maybe one day
But now now.
If i do intend on waiting.
How far will I get.
Sighh,
I know I said I wouldn't write another emo post.
But I couldn't help it.

I'll get there
And I'll be strong.
For me..for you..